I'm addicted to skin candy....

 well at least I think I am. I have the self control to not drop $200 on a bottle of extrait de parfum, but I know someday when I'm making big-girl money it will be a bit of an problem. 

    One fateful day in high school, a day were I wasn't drooling over my hands and onto the school desk, my bestie Milana moved her laptop screen in my direction to bring my attention to this website she was surfing; Fragrantica. I'll paste the link at the bottom so you don't lose yourself on that webpage until after this. 

It's basically a website for fragrance wh-res and sl-ts, where they can endlessly discover new perfumes and possible signature scents. The website is designed sosososoooo well, you can search perfumes by so many different notes. You can save them and report which ones you have tried and liked. I have a small list of perfumes I want to smell very badly, but unfortunately I'm drawn to the indie perfumes that barely any stores sell.

#1 Must Try/Buy: zoologist BEE

#2 Must Try/Buy: imaginary authors SAINT JULEP

#3 Must Try/Buy: zoologist HUMMINGBIRD

#4 Must Try/Buy: Kerosene Fragrances WINTER OF 99

Excuse the even number of pictures, I'd normally use the number 3 or 5. Hope you enjoy this short little discovery blog post :>

there's something wrong....

     I've been feeling a very persistent itch in my body for a while, I think it started after I graduated. It feels like I haven't done enough yet. But I don't know what of. I have all the outlets and resources a person could have, the privileges of having access to the internet, being born and raised in LA, a house and a job, and a beautiful web of the bestest friends I could ask for. Maybe the itch isn't a hollowness I think it is, but just something ticking? A clock for when I'll be completely free from my childhood home and lifestyle. 

  I think I've been piling too many ideas and concepts onto my lap. My brain can only hold so many things before I projectile vomit them onto my cerulean moleskin notebook I got in Montana. I think I'll list as many as I can so you can get an idea of how scrambled my brain is as of now.

Film some music videos like that YouTube craze in the early 2010s.

Try to continue filming for my fashion show I started in my senior year of high school.

Start a hustle of writing letters for long-distance college couples.

Get my damn driving license.

Write fan letters to: Sandra Rhodes, Gillian Anderson, Julia Butterfly Hill, FKA Twigs, Carrie White, Chole Cherry, and the loml Hozier. The list will continue to grow over time.

Work on my puppet show (I still have no name ideas for it).

Plan a fancy tea party so I have an excuse to wear this rad wedding dress I thrifted at Jet Rag.

Figure out college.

  I'm probably dismissing some other things that my brain is juggling around, but that's what's in my head. I also blame the internet and technology for ruining the once stable flow of creative energy because I'm constantly exposed to people who inspire me. Such an awful thing for poor little me! Peace and Love to my lovely readers, I'll probably make a post about Julia Butterfly since she has such a beautiful soul.

    

Dear Readers.........

     I remembered the existence of this website when I was reminiscing my middle school years, of when I had some decent writing skills and lots of creative energy. I still do have lots of ideas, and its been 4 years since middle school and when I used to write blogs, so I thought why not start again?

    I've lost my affinity for creative writing, but I have been writing letters to people for almost 3 years now which is insane for me to think about. I have no clue who actually still reads blogs in this new media era of tiktok and such things. Who the heck even still actively reads articles? I'll just assume not many people will stick through all the other things I might post here over time. There's lots of ways I'd like to use this blog, some might be:

- A diary (casual nothing extremely personal)

- Progress tracker for my creative ideas

- Improve my writing skills

- Educate on random topics I'm passionate about

And maybe some other things I can't think of right now. I currently have a very old diary from 2010/2012 and I've been slowing down with my entries, as I don't feel very attracted to it right now.

    If you are someone who has never met me, and knows absolutely nothing about me, I will type some information I feel is at least mildly interesting and descriptive of me.

- I as of recently consider myself a dancer (ballroom for about 6 months, vogue only 3 actual months of lessons/practice)I plan on eventually learning hakk, majorette dancing, fulafare, ummmmm techno or technotik (like the spoke video from 2007), breakdancing, Manipuri/Bharatanatyam, and go back to learn more ballroom like quickstep. 

- I own one pair of Lightbulb Air Jordans, a pair of Miu Miu wood sandal heels with acrylic stones and fake amber, a pair of leopard print fur kitten heel boots with a chartreuse leather brim, a pair of stripper heels (Pleaser brand) with gold guns as the heel leg, a pair of black leather heel Doc Martens, and a beautiful pair of Ariat boots with blue and soft brown leather and white thread embroidery. Those are my favorite shoes out of all of the pairs I own. 

- My favorite teas are Rose Petal Black Tea from a teahouse in Montana, I also love a good cup of jasmine. I hope to someday invest in good honey. 

- I have a trail of ants from behind my ear crawling down through my sternum, across my belly and down and around my knee to the top of my ankle. I also have two symmetrical ladybug tattoos on my underarm. I plan on getting dragonfly wings sprouting from the nape of my neck, hanging down to my tailbone.

- I love anything bohemian-esque (I want to start something similar to The Last Bohemians Podcast).

- I'm addicted to making new friends and crave to branch into other countries and lands.

    I think I will end this blog here. I thankfully only have to work at my cafe job from 9-12. 

Peace and Love,

Belladonna

PS: I am not in the mood to proofread this, Ill work on that laaaaater

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